From: somms@mit.edu To: somms-digest@mit.edu Subject: Soundgarden Digest, Thursday, 10 Apr 1997 Part II Reply-To: somms@mit.edu Date: Thu, 10 Apr 1997 19:13:17 EDT Sender: saperl The Soundgarden Digest: Thursday, 10 Apr 1997 Part II listadmin: saperl@mit.edu list archive: http://www.sgi.net/soundgarden/archive/ ***listadmin note: Because the traffic continues to be heavy, and because I know that people who get the digest want to stay involved in the discussion, here's the first 50 messages that were sent to the list since the last digest went out. There will probably not be another issue until tomorrow morning. -seth TO UNSUBSCRIBE: email saperl@mit.edu Today's Topics: what the fuck? *Sob* And I had to hear it from Riki to believe... mixing Hater's second album? Re: And I had to hear it from Riki to believe... Dark Day tears to NEVER forget fugue state what a day :( :( Imminent Humiliation and loss The curtain falls Shower in the dark day.. Thank You.... #somms i need HELP damn DJs They had it on Aussie radio too........:-( I'll be wearing black today! had a taste so sour.. had to think of something sweet All Bleeding Together... love always Limo Wreck Fell on Black Days I don't want to start rumours. I just want an answer. Close your eyes and bow your head Looking for a pedestal... Re: Soundgarden Digest, Wednesday, 9 Apr 1997 Part II Re: Soundgarden Digest, Wednesday, 9 Apr 1997 Part II Fuckmerunning With a bang not a whimper? Re: A black day Re: NNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! what a happy birthday mutual? more thoughts... what else. The irony of it all. ben...... Chicago--interested? All's Silent In The Garden.... Soundgarden 1984-1997 mi corazon llora Love's like Suicide Tears are shed for the death of a part of me #somms I think its coming back around Hollywood Reporter article everything to have them back!! Re: fugue state ------------------------------------------------------------ From: "Nicolas" Subject: Hi all, I read a lot about what is happening / happened, and I feel really sad too. But there's one thing I'd like to say to the ones who still believe that one day Soundgarden will be together again : I wish that too, but when the guy -who I've already spoke about- who seems to be the one who mixed the DOTU tour, told me 5 months ago that Soundgarden was going to stop, he told me that it was b/c there was too much pressure on them and there were problems between the members during the tour. Moreover that they were rich enough to live without working. Personally I don't think that's true; I mean, yes they are rich but such talented guys can't live without create. That's the reason why I am optimist and I'll rush to the store as soon as I'll know that there will have a record by one of the 4 guys. It's stupid to say "whatever they will do, it will never be Soundgarden" !! OF COURSE, it won't be Soundgarden !! But it does not mean that it will suck or that it won't rock. They are all more musically mature now and I'm sure that They'll do some great stuff. Now, we just have to pray for this 4 guys to be fast to let us know what their personnal projetcs sound like...This attitude is way more intelligent I think, don't ya' ??? We mustn't live in the past. I share your pain now, nevertheless I am optimist. Sincerely, Nicolas. ------------------------------ From: THE SPOONMAN Subject: what the fuck? what a sad day! u probably havent seen me much around here, I'm not so long in this mailing list, and I sended only a few letters in. I've just looked at my mail reading stupid letters about stupid pictures, and suddenly I saw a message about soundgarden breaking up. yea sure! I've seen so many letters like this before I just didnt believe it and went on. as I went on reading I understood that april fools day is gone, and soundgarden is *breaking up!*. damn! what can I say? we cant let them do that! (does anyone in here has a small military force, we can break into Chris's mansion) cut the crap! guess we will have to live without them, day by day. goodbye to u all. maybe for the last time "for all your kisses turn to spit in my face" btw, sorry for the spelling mistakes, I'm a bit angry ------------------------------ From: cornell@loon.norlink.net (paul smith) Subject: *Sob* Well i ahve come to the realization that my dram is over, my vision has been crushed, i was one of the few, the proud the brave, who stuck w/ soundgarden, i am almost 18, i have loved soundgarden for well over 5 years, yet i have NEVER gotten the chance to see them live...*Tears Streaming Down* why!? Why?! Why?! it doesnt seem fair to me, why is this happening? a part of me has died today, a part of me is empty, sure i have the cd's i have the ep's i have the singles, it just isnt enouh, it was my dream to see them live, now it is gone, gone like the career of the greatest band ever! well i know i have only posted like 3 messsages on here but i have been sick for weeks, now i am feeelinglike i am gonna throw up, this is so sadening, i just cant beleive it, why didnt we know about this, why so sudden? i thought everything was fine, chris seemed happy, so did kim, i just cant comprehend or accept this right noW! i needed to see them live, now i cant, no i am gonna die...well inside i am already dead now...well i hopoe the list stays up, that would suck even more, well time to go cry myself to sleep...bye-bey... Paul...*Sob*... "Peace...Love...And Empathy" [Kurt D. Cobain] ------------------------------ From: rosee01@sprynet.com Subject: And I had to hear it from Riki to believe... Yes folks, I heard it on Riki Rachtman's radio show about 9:45pm Pacific Time. Until then, I did not believe the first posts so I had to brush it off. I figured, if it's being said by fans and also by radio personalities, then it must be true! I didn't check my mail again until much later this evening, so of course, I'm kinda late with the news. I almost felt like crying--this reminds me of the time Cobain died--you know, no more new Nirvana. So what's up with this situation? I hope they at least do a few farewell shows. They shouldn't dissapear 'into the void'... By the way, I have not seen SG play live yet...I am so deprived! BTW, if there is an IRC channel or chatroom open tonight, someone let me know ASAP! RoseeMisst ------------------------------ From: dumo13@erols.com Subject: mixing Hater's second album? Pardon me for finding the first sliver of light amidst the darkness: Did someone post as statement saying that Hater is currently mixing their second album? This is a good thing, no? BTW: Here are my predictions, Chris Cornell: Working as a producer and moving toward poetry Kim Thayil: Replacing Dime-Bag Darrell's column in "Guitar for the Musical Masturbator" Matt Cameron: This joker is way too talented! Hater at the least! I see bigger things for him though. Ben Shepherd: If you're not stalking him, you probably won't be able to keep track of him. Hater or Devilhead... The whole hater thing looks real promising though. I mean, you're gonna have massive publicity from the breakup and fiends like you and me grasping for material... and the dork who thinks it's gonna be a collector's item... snatching the album up. Maybe if it's successful enough, we could see atleast half of the Garden intact? (jesus, how many Chris's are there on this list?) Northern Virginia Chris ------------------------------ From: alisa brozena Subject: Re: And I had to hear it from Riki to believe... To all of aol people, we shoudl start a SG chat room to grieve this terrible event! *_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_* Heal my wound without a trace and seal my tomb without my face, I'm going to the only place... -C. Cornell *_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_* ------------------------------ From: "Farsi" Subject: Dark Day It just seemed too good to be true, and it show it was. How can this be!!?? My god this is a sad day. - -Shower in dark day - -Clean sparks diving down - -Cool in the waterway - -Where the baptized drown - -Naked in the cold sun - -Breathing life like fire - -Thought I was the only one - -But that is just a lie Farsi ------------------------------ From: Larry Grover Subject: tears to NEVER forget I've been resisting writing in just because of the sheer volume of posts, but damn it!, there's nobody here I can really talk to. Mom helped, but she's hundreds of miles away. My husband starts the "they're just a band. Bands always break up, or die. Those people need to get a life" shit. Reading what you all have to say hurts, but it helps. I don't have to hide anything from you. Alright, I'm old enough to remember when the Beatles broke up. That was awful, but it wasn't so sudden. Since then I've lived through the breakups of many bands that I loved to varying degrees, and the loss of a number of favorite musicians to untimely deaths. (THANK GOD that is not the case here!!) So, you would think one would get used to it. You would think it would get easier to deal with. It doesn't. It hurts. It will hurt for quite some time. I, too, was blithely listening to them before I got the news. I had been out shopping, buying tapes for a trade in progress, blasting Soundgarden in my car, as I usually do. I was listening to BMF and could think of nothing else but what an incredible record it is. I was in heaven. I flipped my tape over and the last song I heard was Head Down, only half of it, in fact, as I was in the driveway then, and I was thinking about what an incredible song it is and what deep, personal meaning those lyrics have always had for me. It's sitting there half finished now, frozen in time, like the end of innocence. Then I went inside and turned on my computer. Seeing that I had no e-mail I decided not to waste the log-on, so checked out Seth's page. It hit me like a fist in the chest. Of course I checked around to verify it. I cried, I cussed, I couldn't get out of my chair for half an hour. I turned on fucking MTV, and turned off the sound. I just couldn't listen to that crap. I couldn't listen to anything. My stereo sits silent. I couldn't listen to our guys. It hurt too much. It was an hour at least before I could even face a poster or picture. I can now, and angry as I might have been, I look at them only with love. Maybe in the morning I'll be able to listen, but I doubt that I'll feel the joy I once did for a long time. Jen Grover ------------------------------ From: SUSAN@crystl.ucsb.edu Subject: fugue state Hi sommspeople, It's very comforting to know that people went through the same emotional turmoil that I've seen today... 1. Denial. Came to work april 9th. Checked Seth's page to see if anything new was up with the band, as I often do first thing in the morning. Saw the press release. I sat there silently, as the rest of the people in my lab busily bustled away, mixing chemicals, putting stuff in ovens, talking in Chinese or German or English about stuff that wasn't important. Thishasgottobeajoke this has got to be a joke THIS HAS GOT TO BE A JOKE. It's close to april fools. My birthday is in a week fer christ sake... this cant be real. 2. Run away! Run away! Buried myself in my work, showed no emotion. Told my friends at work the bad news. They're not fans; they tried to comfort me by attempting to take my mind off the situation. "Susan, thousands of people in North Korea are starving to death." I tried to focus on this fact and other dreary aspects of politics, etc. to avoid looking inside and seeing an empty space. Run away! run away! 3. Acceptance Read the somms mailing list. All of you express what I am feeling a hell of a lot better than I ever could. Finally realized that I would never be able to look forward to a new release or concert by my favorite band. 4. Rejoicing in what we have received I'm at lab at 2 o clock in the morning. Superunknown is CRANKED and BLASTING. I love this band, and I wish all the members the best. I hope their solo projects are good. While there will no longer be music with contributions from four distinctly different personalities, each adding a special, characteristic edge....hopefully there will be something better than the crap being played on the radio. Speaking of radio, a brief stage known as "Anger did occur between the run away! and acceptance stages....when I saw Sheryl Crow videos on MTV and VH1, and heard Bush and Counting Craps and Hootie and the Blowchunks on the radio. SG, HOW COULD YOU LEAVE US MIRED IN AND SURROUNDED BY ALL THIS SHITTY, MEDIOCRE MUSIC, WITH NO HOPE OF RESPITE? Many are the times I've said, "Oh yeah, better than ezra?! TAKE THIS!" and switched off the radio and cranked up some Soundgarden. I'll miss them. No matter what I was feeling, there was a soundgarden song that expressed it perfectly. Their combined talent blasted off the disk, through my headphones, into my ears and into my soul, leaving an indescribable feeling of RIGHTNESS. I can't explain it. It can't be imitated. I hope it is still there in some of the solo projects. Thanks for listening....and writing to the list. I get some comfort knowing I'm not alone. So bleed your heart out....there's no more rides for free... Now I know why you've been shaken. Susan L. ------------------------------ From: JAMES COLES <808state@pixi.com> Subject: what a day :( :( This has got to be the worst month in my life so far.Today is my 29th birthday,what a bummer.Every year on this day I will be mourning the loss of my favorite band. :( I guess that I should look on the upside,I got to see them here in my home town (Hawaii) which will now be the place where they last performed.I got to meet some really cool hoochies(vikki,Eileen&corinna) went back stage,met the band,got autographs Etc... All we can do now is sit back and see what these guys do as individuals(I can't wait). ALOHA GUYS XXX0000.........Nancy ------------------------------ From: "wyn" Subject: Imminent Humiliation and loss I finally got at least one confirmation on triple j over here at 12.30pm I knew at 5.30 am this morning when I read my e-mail. When I first read the email I thought no this has to be true no one could be so callous to prank about this. But still up until I heard it on the radio I still didn't believe it, I could probably say I still don't not until I see it in another source (TV, newspaper) not fact until confirmed by 3 sources at least to me. Another thing is that after setting up my new modem this week and getting it connected I requested a song at RECOVERY TV Jesus Christ pose and I also sent a photo along just to see if I could do it because it asked for a photo of your self to put up on the screen while they play it. I cant say that I really want all of Australia to see me but I do hope they play the video since I suppose they have a reason now. Suffering loss and imminent Humiliation Bronwyn ------------------------------ From: Warren Dyson Subject: The curtain falls Hi there everyone, Today is truly a black day, and even though the sun is shining, It's dark inside ... 'And I'm lost, behind The words I'll never find And I'm left behind As seasons roll on by' - Chris Cornell. Rest in peace *** S O U N D G A R D E N ***, you will be greatly missed. For all those nights you helped me through, and for all the songs you gave us, I thank you. Soundgarden is a tear from an eye dreaming..... 'I think I know the answer, stumbled on and all the world, fell down, On a plus and minus, zero chance of ever, turning this around, They say if you look hard, find your way back home, Born without a friend, and bound to die alone.' I will never love like this again, Warren Dyson. ------------------------------ From: Stephen Frantz Subject: Shower in the dark day.. I hope Soundgarden someday read the posts of the last few days, they would then get a reality check of how much they meant to us all. April 9, 1997, not a good day..... ------------------------------ Subject: Thank You.... From: jsimpson@mail03.mitre.org (Jamesetta Simpson) As I read note after note from members of this SOMMs mailing list I finally realized just how much Soundgarden has given me. There were notes from members who have come and gone, members who have always been here but kept a low profile, and members whose names have become familiar as family names. Each note added to memories that kept coming back to me from the last two years. The first few months where we talked about our favorite songs, band member, and other (sometimes) silly feelings for a "Rock 'n' Roll" band. The flame wars. The excitement of going to Chicago and meeting not only this wonderful band but meeting so many of the people who make up this list. I never thought it possible that because of a band my life could change in so many ways. I now have friends I know I will keep for life. So "Thank You" Soundgarden for not only giving me years of music but being the catalyst that gave me so many wonderful new friends. And most of all thank you for helping me find the most precious gift of all - love. Because of this mailing list I have met and falling in love with a man who is everything I have ever hope for. Chris, Matt, Ben, and Kim - may your future be filled with as much happiness as you have given me. Jamie (Village Idiot/SOMMs Mom) ------------------------------ From: "Matt Cameron" Subject: #somms i need HELP hi there listen no metter where you are at work or at school plz join #somms co`z i have to talk to someone i skipped school co`z i just couldent stand the pain i was crying all the time i cant keep on holding on it is too hard for me to understand it i must talk to someone!! i cant go on living! - ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- - ------------ BEWARE: You have just been e-mail from Matt Cameron You may Replay this mail to:stimpy1@netvision.net.il - ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- - ------------ ------------------------------ From: Tessa Subject: damn DJs On one VERY sad day... As tribute to SG, our radio station here in NZ playing a Perfect Album Sideshow...favourite SG songs etc. And the stupid DJ has to be the most insensitive prick on the planet. Listening to BUTOW and crying...and he's laughing and pretending to cry and fucking up info...ie formed in 1990, struggled for 3 yrs before becoming one of the most popular bands around. The hardest thing about this for me is that listening to SG it seems to easy to just slip back into what they used to be...my fave band that would be together forever and who *might* release Rhinosaur as the next single...that seems like the stupidest thing to worry about now. That's why listening to them is so hard for me...I still can't believe it, and listening to the music makes it totally impossible. It's just unreal. And listening to BUTOW, which I have heard so many times before and used to bring such joy now brings pain and suffering. According to the idiot DJ, (who just put the wrong song on: "here's Pretty Noose" and some girl starts hollering) they "amicably and mutually split because, according to the press release issued, of the high visiblity and lack of anonymity...especially Chris Cornell, who...uh, if you're a girl, is probably...um pretty good. He landed them on the cover of every rock magazine in America...and probably everwhere else as well. He's probably gonna become a recluse now." Have I mentioned how much I hate that DJ? Listening to Pretty Noose and I suddenly realise that I'm not really paying much attention to the song because it's so familiar and safe to me...and then I click that I will never hear this in the same way ever again. Never with the same clarity and honesty...damn. There will always be pain with their music now. Wiping away tears from the band that was the best but is no more... Forever, Tessa. ------------------------------ From: Carolyn Hanel Subject: They had it on Aussie radio too........:-( Driving home just now I heard Triple J's Michael Tunn say that tonight's = "9.30 Three" songs (three songs from the one band are played each night = at 9.30 pm) will be dedicated to Soundgarden, who have broken up today. I almost swallowed my tongue and ran off the road. Broken up? Soundgarden? The first thing I did was get in here and fire up my PC. I haven't = checked my mail in the last 2 days - and as I write this I am seeing = messages flying in from my fellow Sommsters telling me THEY too heard = this sad news on their own radio stations. Radio stations from all around the world announcing this - does this = mean it's correct???? I can just imagine in 20 years time when I'll tell my children how = specifically I can remember the exact moment when I learnt that = Soundgarden split up. =20 7.56 pm at Australian Central Standard Time - what a horror memory. I do hope I won't have to tell my kids about it one day! Carolyn the Morose Face =00=00 ------------------------------ From: GFloGRL@aol.com Subject: I'll be wearing black today! For the almost a year and a half, I've been on this mailing list with not much to say. Yet, I feel that now is the time to express myself. First off, I want to ask has anyone spoken to Seth! Is he okay? I know from his posts that he is a level-headed guy, so I'm not concerned about him doing anyone crazy, I'm just more sad for him than myself. He put a great deal of his life into SG and not that's come to an end. That can be hard to deal with, when it's this sudden. If you read this Seth, thank you for the mailing list and the wedsite. Hang in there! Next, I want everyone to know that I don't feel this is the absolute end of the band SG. If CC doesn't become the next ROCK GOD with his solo career, SG will return. After 12 years you just don't walk away and not look back. I look forward to more acoustic releases from CC and perhaps another Temple of the Dog (please,please,please) and then the tides will change. I'd almost guarantee it, but I'm not psychic. Damn, I loved that band!!!! No, tears from me though, because the Phoenix will rise from the ashes! ------------------------------ From: sknauf@ibm.net Subject: had a taste so sour.. had to think of something sweet My heart hurts... and for the first time in 5 years I'm weeping. thanx everyone for being here and understanding, and thank you Sg for what you've given me; it's something no one can take away. - ----------------------------------------------------------- LOS ANGELES (Reuter) - Veteran Seattle-based rock band Soundgarden, whose hard-edged sound paved the way for the so-called ``grunge'' revolution and bands such as Nirvana and Pearl Jam, said Wednesday it was splitting up. ``After 12 years, the members of Soundgarden have amicably and mutually decided to disband to pursue other interests,'' said a statement issued by the group's A&M Records label. ''There is no word at this time on any of the members' future plans.'' A spokeswoman for Soundgarden's management company said ''there was no drama attached'' to the breakup, but she declined to elaborate on why the group should split at the peak of its career. While the four members of the band had very strong personalities, they never gave any hint to outsiders that a split was in the works. Indeed, aside from its music, the band kept a low public profile and rarely gave much away in interviews. The band consisted of Chris Cornell on vocals/guitar, Kim Thayil on guitar, Ben Shepherd on bass and Matt Cameron on drums. Cornell wrote most of the songs and his wife, Susan Silver, managed the band. Its last concert was on Feb. 9 in Honolulu after it had played dates in New Zealand and Australia, the management spokeswoman said. Its latest album, ``Down on the Upside,'' was released last May and sold about 1.3 million copies in the United States. The band's previous album, 1994's ``Superunknown,'' won two Grammy Awards and pushed the group into the mainstream thanks to hit singles such as ``Black Hole Sun,'' ``Spoonman'' and ``Fell On Black Days.'' Named after a pipe sculpture in Seattle's Sand Point, Soundgarden was formed in 1984 by Cornell, who was initially the drummer, and Thayil, along with original bass player Hiro Yamamoto. Influenced by such bands as Black Sabbath, the Stooges, Kiss and MC5, the band quickly made its mark on the Seattle scene, which operated in isolation from the rest of the country. Cameron joined in 1986, Yamamoto left in 1989 and was eventually replaced by Shepherd. After issuing several extended-play records, Soundgarden released its first album in 1988, the Grammy-nominated ''Ultramega OK.'' It predated bands such as Mother Love Bone, Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Alice in Chains, and was one of the first of that genre to sign to a major record company, A&M, which issued Soundgarden's label debut ``Louder Than Love'' in 1989. ``Badmotorfinger,'' with the songs ``Jesus Christ Pose'' and ''Outshined,'' came out in 1991 followed by ``Superunknown.'' - ------------------------------------------------------------------------ RIP Soundgarden. We'll always be here :~( sabrina ------------------------------ Subject: All Bleeding Together... From: Brydon Cheyney CS95 Oh my God... I sat down half an hour ago, open my mailbox, see a deluge of SG mail... 'Cool' I think... Couple of letter from Geekgirl, my SOMMS Goddess and personal Babe... I read her's first, there's a sense of urgency in her writing... She tells me SG are gone..? What? I need IRC... I need to talk to the people who care, the people I know, Dena, Shroom, Caryn, the rest... I don't need this right now. Enough shit is going on my life. I only feel thankful for the fact I saw SG for the first (and last) time last Summer... Travelled a few hundred miles, most of it across sea, 18 hours travel, several hundred pounds - for one of the greatest gigs I've seen in my life... Kyuss broke up on me too, at least I saw SG live... But it's painful to see them go... Life without SG... It goes on, but it's not the same... 'I dreamed of different times, and tried to find my way Though all the darkest lies, cloud my world today I'm not unbreakable, but I like to pretend It's not unthinkable that I could feel again...' Brydon - -- Loneliness - An interesting place to visit, just don't take any friends ------------------------------ From: Myra Haza Subject: love always I just want to thank SG for all the years of rocking. SG has changed my train of thought about many things. It seems like they always hace the perfect song for me. When I'm mad, I can listen to Ty Cobb or Circle of Power. When I'm depressed, I listen to Like Suicide and Tighter and Tighter. As you can see, they have a song for my every mood. One of Chris's songs, Say Hello 2 Heavan, even help me get over the death of my cousin who I was very cloes to. Thank-you SG for all your hard work. SG is my favorite band and I will love them always. ------------------------------ Subject: Limo Wreck From: Brydon Cheyney CS95 I'm slamming on 'Limo Wreck' on as soon as I get home... Fuck, I want to run home home now, crank the volume - fuck the neighbours... Primal rage is what's needed right now, something to dull the pain... Brydon ------------------------------ From: Peter Taylor Subject: Fell on Black Days Yesterday in Tutor group, or home room, whatever. We had the radio on. We were listening to triple J. Fell on Black Day was on. I didn't think anything of it at the time, as I hadn't heard .... It was so Ironic. SOUNDGARDEN YOUR MUSIC HAS HELPED KEEP ME GOING THROUGH SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU GUYS, AND I WILL ALWAYS MISS YOU. YOUR MUSIC WILL ALWAYS KEEP ON PLAYING, EVEN THOUGH YOUR NOT. I can't believe this has happened. It feels so unreal that only 12 weeks ago I saw them in concert. This is all so sudden. Call me ignorant but I wasn't prepared at all for this. Please, Dose anyone know why? Nicola. pLEASE DON'T EVER LET THIS LIST DIE. ------------------------------ From: Peter Taylor Subject: I don't want to start rumours. I just want an answer. Fellow Freinds. I heard a rumour a couple of days ago beffore I heard the crippiling news yesterday. I heard that chris has throat cancer. I told the person who told me it was bullshit and dismissed it. Is it bull, or is it true? Dose anyone know? Please let it be bullshit. Your music will never die. Nicola ------------------------------ From: tendrils well, on a very dark day i decided to add my own post (probably last) to the pile. I just want to thank soundgarden for the inspiration, among so much more.... and lets not get too depressed (damn, too late), i didnt know what to do, so i found some alcohol and rented Attack of the Killer Tomatoes. Well, i dont know if it was really funny or not, i wasnt laughing, but i had to see something soundgarden related that i hadn't seen before.... Heres to "foo" cameron and the rest of the most powerful (moving) band of music makers in the world ------------------------------ From: #1 Brat Subject: Close your eyes and bow your head i didn't go to school today. i couldn't. i can't even listen to them right now. i can't listen to anything. my eyes are stinging, my head's pounding, the sun's risen & i thought i would've stoped crying forever by now. but i put on the radio before, and they played butow, and it started all over again. and then the bastards finally had the common decency to mention what's happened, they talked about what Karen Cornell said, and then they started in on the "took the money and run" thing. the fuckers. after i write this i'm calling to give them a piece of my mind. "amicably." that word makes me feel a whole hell of a lot better. i'm sorry but i'd rather hear that they fucking exploded on eachother... at least that would be a reason, at least that would make some sense... i can't believe that they would just stop. i know, a lot of ppl are saying that at least it happened at the when they were in their prime - they were smart to quit while they were ahead, on top. but it just doesn't make sense to me. it wasn't supposed to be like this. it's so ironic - they keep stressing "amicably," "friendly," "mutually," words that are supposed to be warm and reassuring, and yet they're the coldest words in the world. they're not real - they can't be. how could they do this w/out a reason? "i shot my love today, would you cry for me? i lost my head again... left her in the sand..." those words have come horrifyingly true. but i can't believe that Soundgarden was a burden to any of them. it seems like the rational part of my mind has stopped working again. well, no, it really hasn't. this is tragic. how could they do this when the world needs them most? how? why, why, why why why is all i can think. now they're playing "Burden" on the radio. how could they do this? why? don't they know how much they're admired an respected? don't they know how important they are? oh, i hope so. i hope so. the world is such a fucked up place in so many ways, sometimes a place that doesn't seem worth living in... but then there's so many wonderful things and wonderful people in it too... the members of Sg are some of the very few who have never let me down, who have til now only inspired me and given me hope... who have been truly heroic in every way. i can't think of anything else right now. yesterday there was so much to look forward to, and now... well it's all clouded over right now. i don't know what else to say. so many thoughts... it just hurts so much to say them. i want to say i appreciate so much that i have you all to share this with, the one comfort is knowing that i'm not alone w/ my feelings. and i love you all because you love them. you asked if i'd cry for you. well i am. ~Lorraine ------------------------------ From: Seth Subject: Looking for a pedestal... Hey, I know that rock stars aren't supposed to be idolized, and there are more important things in life, and, as people they should do whatever makes them happy, but right now *I* am not happy. I can't even get myself to read the rest of the digest. There's a reason I spent so much money and time collecting Soundgarden music, my girlfriend always said it was just for the sake of saying I have it, but it always really ment more than what any other artists had to say to me, and I guess it will for a long time, but for now I am mourning a loss. I wonder how Chris, Kim, Matt, and Ben are doing. I imagine, however, that they had more time to prepare for this than we did. I also imagine they had a REALLY hard time deciding how to let the fans know, which is why it seeped out like it did......................I've got to go, this is really too much Take It Easy, Go Listen To Some Rock And Roll Music, And Feel Bad For A While, Seth W. ------------------------------ From: ooyesiku@brynmawr.edu (Olukemi Oyesiku) Subject: Re: Soundgarden Digest, Wednesday, 9 Apr 1997 Part II Response to Karen, (drinking/smoking) Well, it does not matter now does it, SG is finished. However, many people are ignmorant of the fact that smoking and drinking cannot be just as harmful as the "worse things" you mentioned he could be doing. I am so fucking tired of everyone thinking smokin is not that bad, at least you don't drink...drinking is not that bad at least you doesn't smoke...smoking/drnking is not that bad at least you don't do pot....doing pot is not that bad at least you don't do drugs....... Whatever!!! I am pretty sure CC is not a heavy drinker, but you can tell by his teeth he is a heavy smoker and smoking is not good for singing whatsoever. Besides, his system obviously has a lower level of tolerance than other people. Some of you are acting like GENERALLY smoking and drinking is not that bad. Well I am talking specifics...his vocal chords cannot handle the strength as let's say...Kurt Cobain's could. Well, whatever, doesn't matter now. I'll never convince you and you'll never convince me. And by the way, there is no rule that conveys one to state one's own opinion, I am well aware of the fact that CC is a grown man but many grown men or women do not always know facts about things they'd rather stay blind from!!!!! CIAO!! ------------------------------ From: ooyesiku@brynmawr.edu (Olukemi Oyesiku) Subject: Re: Soundgarden Digest, Wednesday, 9 Apr 1997 Part II This whole thing does fuckning SUCKS!! I still am in absolute shock!! I hate this so fucking much and it hurts so BAD!!!!!! I cryed till it hurt when I heard SG broke up. Hell, I loved Nirvana, KC, like hell and it did not hurt nearly this bad. I guess we are all amazed at this because it came from fucking nowhere, totally fuckin' un expected!! I want to know why, WHY WHY!!!!!!??????? I keep saying over and over again, SG broke up, SG broke up and I cannot for he life of me understand nor can except this!!!! It is the "4th of July", I didn't see anythin "in the sky", I didn't think "it was the end"!! What do I do now.FUCK FUCK FUCK, if one more fucking band breaks up I will just surely go mental!!!!!!! I would understand if AEROSMITH broke up because they are near 50 and have been around since the 70s. But, SG why?? Why?? Why?? Someone mentioned Alice in Chains. I also hope they do not break up because they have not even done a concert for there last album. They even have a better reason for breaking up, Layne's problema con droghe, but SG?? OK, i am calm now and have taken a deep breath. I still do not see clearly, i am disillusioned, tired and have a grandiose headache from tossing and turning all night and lack of sleep. But, I know I and all of us must get over this some how. Damn it, I wish I could wake up and this would all be a bad dream.. This morning in fact, I though it was!! I cannot believe to of the greatest tragedies of our time in Rock 'n Roll have happened on two consecuive days. Someone mentioned April 8th being the day of KC's demise, now April 9th is the day of SG'd demise!!!!! I do not have the words....I think I will stop now...I feel this knotch in my stomache and my head beginning to tighten....Tighter and Tighter......... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - --KEMI Long live Soundgarden forever and ever...... Long live THE POET, CHRIS CORNELL..... Ling live our memories...... Listen hard to their music...... Hold fast..... Let them stay in our dreams...... "Sleep tight for [them], sleep tight for [them], [their] gone".....but not in our memories....... - -----"the words we say never sem to live up to the ones inside our heads"------ ------------------------------ From: Slave4cc@aol.com Subject: Fuckmerunning "im the wreck of you, im the death of you all" "hey you slaves go hang your owners" Yea, maybe I will. At least I have you guys to mourn with. I love you all. Carol Slave4CC ------------------------------ From: Mark Miller Subject: With a bang not a whimper? Sign me up with the camp that is sad but at the same time happy that they are calling it quits. I think breaking up when you are on top like Jane's Addition did was great. You dont have to slowly watch them die and listen to their music deteriorate. Although some people call it giving up and wussing out I think that after 12 years some of the magic has to be missing. I will miss Soundgarden and be hoping for a CC solo album (something in the vein of his acoustic numbers would be great) but I know that there will be a new Soundgarden. I thought music was heading downhill until I heard Tool in 1993. Who will be my saviour in 1997? Hopefully my own band. My best wishes go out to Soundgarden and their future projects. Mark ------------------------------ From: Fiona Thiessen Subject: Re: A black day will this feeling in my stomach go away eventually? Will my body stop aching? I am exhausted from crying, and completley drained. 12:30pm on 10th april (australia) I heard the news, sitting in my car. I can only liken this feeling to finding out Kurt C was dead, and that feeling has never gone away. Caryn, I thought about seeing SG all around Australia but couldn't afford it finacially or time wise. i'm fucking taking a loan out when PJ tour. See the bands you love as many times as possible. Fuck school/Uni/job! I have nothing to say.... Fiona ------------------------------ Subject: Re: NNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! From: everglade@juno.com (Robyn E Nachtsheim) >i'm thinkin' suicide here........ >help >Marc I hope you're kidding about suicide, that's totally uncool. If you kill yourself you may never experience the wonders of what Chris, Kim, Matt, and Ben have yet to come. You never know, their solo stuff may be awesome, or maybe the "Spawn of Soundgarden" they produce in the shape of new bands will blow you away. Remember: they're all *alive* and haven't lost their talent. They will still be making music. They just don't want to make music together anymore. They have given us great music and I am looking forward to what comes out of this. Soundgarden as a band may have been stifling their creativity as individuals, and being friends, they decided to go their separate ways. I don't know for sure what really happened or really if it's any of my business, but I wish them well and appreciate what they have given us. I'm sad that my first post had to be under these circumstances. ------------------------------ From: Ferboid@aol.com Subject: what a happy birthday i know this may be a little late, but i have just discovered that sg broke up. yesterday i had absolutely no time at all, and today, MY BIRTHDAY, sg breaks up. the only reason i listen to music any more is gone. i can't believe that this happened. i am so shocked at this moment. nothing that can before even gave us a hint of this happening. this sucks so much!!!!! sean ------------------------------ From: kjm@mtool.com (Karen Monoker) Subject: mutual? Well I have finally read through all 3 digests that Seth sent (thanks Seth!), and I am very sad and upset as well. I also never thought that SG would ever break up. What I am wondering right now is (new thread?) do you think it really was everyone mutually agreeing to break up? I think that Matt, Ben, and Kim probably wanted to do more of their own thing considering that Chris really did most everything in SG. OK don't everyone yell at me at once now, but Chris wrote almost all of the lyrics and music for SG. Of course there wouldn't be a "SG sound" without Matt, Ben, Kim, and Chris, but really Chris played the biggest role in the band. I don't doubt for a minute that Chris will probably do a solo project, and you know what, he will be amazing! No, it won't ever be Soundgarden but it will still be totally rad. I have listened to them for the past 9 years and will never ever stop listening to them, but I know I will love whatever Chris does because it is his incredible voice and lyrics that deeply affect the way I feel. Still sad -> Karen ------------------------------ From: mshaw@lib.occ.cccd.edu (RoseeMisst) Subject: more thoughts... Dave Miller says, > Don't hate them, it's what they want, it's >their life. I respect them for taking a lot of time to think it over and >not do anything they would regret. SG will live forever through us, don't >forget. I am getting that same feeling when Cobain killed himself. I JUST HATED HIM FOR IT. Now SG's breaking up, and I think I feel the same way. I know it's their prerogative to do their thing, but it's almost like a sudden death--it comes unexpected(at least by me). I hope to God that they will do some FAREWELL SHOWS. Then I think I will rest content knowing that I have seen SG play before I died. I will pay anything for tickets! ^~@RoseeMisst@~^ ------------------------------ From: Slave4cc@aol.com Subject: what else. Hello everyone, I had to tell someone the sad news, so, I told my sister... my sister laughed at me, my sister doesnt know. my poor sisters never had, something touch her soul. "Soundgarden is an essence, a state of mind". <----Chris Cornell when you looked in those eyes on Motorvision, could you see the power of those guys? I know that they will do well in all their endeavors. Benlover, did you ever finish your soundgarden bible. If so, can you send me a copy? ;) Carol slave4cc yea, im obsessed. someone send me a hug ------------------------------ From: Rebekah Henderson Subject: The irony of it all. I remember when Kurt Cobain killed himself. I remember listening to 'In Utero' and when 'All Apologies' came on I thought, "Isn't this ironic? The last song on their last record was almost like a suicide note." The same thing has happened with SG. I listened to DOTU shortly after I heard the horrible news and when 'Boot Camp' came on I thought, "Isn't this ironic? This is the last song on their last record and just listen to those lyrics! They have a whole new meaning now." I've found that in the short time past sense this news came about, I've become *extremely* sensitive just to the mention of SG's name. When I read what Seth put on the page in New Damage, I started to get teary for about the millionth time. Seth, that was very beautiful and very true. Also, reading some people's posts put the waterworks in motion. I *never* saw them live. I feel so lost. I actually had the chance and I didn't take it. I think it was Caryn who said that she will now never pass up the chance to see a band she loves live. All I can say is this is so true. You will live to regret it to the day you die. I won't let this happen again. If there is an 'again'. SG *IS* my favorite band and they have their place in history which is truly wonderful. They will be terrribly missed, but never forgotten. May Soundgarden be with you. (always) Rebekah ------------------------------ From: "ANDRI NADZRI" Subject: ben...... just wonderin.. all the explanation seems to point out that... Ben's tantrum's must have piss off everyone else in the band... damn....ben..u write such good songs..but you need some serious mental rehabitalization...... Long Gone days.... andri - --------------------------------------------------------- Get Your *Web-Based* Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - --------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------ From: "Anna Mehrer" Subject: Chicago--interested? Hello--for all of those in Chicagoland who are interested in getting together to wallow in sorrows or cheer a new chapter, please e-mail me privately so that something can be coordinated. It's still affecting me. I identify with all of your sentiments. I guess = there's nothing else i can say without stating the obvious. Although it is still important to listen to Helmet's new album. :) Take care all, and keep on truckin' (posting?) - --Anna p.s. Even though I thought she was full of excrement, I had my cards read 2 weeks ago, and one thing the woman DID say, was that the months of April and May are going to be hell for everyone on the planet. = (I think mine had a head start in March). So far, she's pretty much = right on target, wouldn't you say? ------------------------------ From: Aferdity@aol.com Subject: All's Silent In The Garden.... Hey All, I know that everyone has posted about how sad they are and I'm no different. I'm devestated. The dreadful day of the 9th brought me home in an unusually good mood. I unconsiously pulled a SG shirt from my drawer and just as I got it over my head these big letters flashed on MTV. Yea, about SG calling it quits. I immediatly gave the tv a big FUCK YOU and then the world a big FUCK YOU you (I'm sure my neighbors heard me but I don't care). In cases like this where I'm too deppressed to talk or think clearly (there has been quite a few in my lifetime) I take a drive with the t-tops off and SG wailing in my cd player but today it was just silence or some other cd. I couldn't bring myself to listen to them and I still can't. It breaks my heart to know that SOUNDGARDEN is gone. I know that people will say that it's not like someone from the band died but it's just the same that the band died and let me tell you it feels, to me, like someone did die. There is this big emptiness in me and it can't be filled. I don't know what I'm saying but at this time not a lot of people on the list are making sense with their posts so it's okay. I mean everyone else is leaning on the other SOMMSters and that's what I'm doing I guess. You know, yesterday was the first time I dreaded checking my e-mail or reading SOMMS. And today was the first day in 5 years that my room wasn't filled with the lovely sound of SG. Oh well, everyone copes differently. Sorry to ramble on but I had to let it out. Take care and be sweet!!! Stay Cool, Kelly )c: ------------------------------ From: Rosa Marchese Subject: Soundgarden 1984-1997 From: Rosa Marchese The music in which SOUNDGARDEN has created will live in all of our hearts forever don'y worry the will be back ------------------------------ From: Mariana Garibay Subject: mi corazon llora Hi everyone! Long time no see, but I had to read the list today...only you could=20 understand how it feels. I=ABm impressed!, I=ABm in shock. It will never be the same. (And we didn=ABt have them in Mexico, sorry comadre...) Thanks for everything guys. Mariana ------------------------------ From: Jentje Subject: Love's like Suicide This is so wierd. I'm still in state that's a cross between denial and numbness. I like denial, I like it a lot, I want to stay in denial... When I first saw that letter in my mailbox I thought it was nothing but bullshit, then I saw Seth's page... It's so weird, and sudden, I mean I open my computer and there's my nice Soundgarden desktop with a whole bunch of pics taken from Seth's page, and then my room is filled with posters and pictures of the band, not to mention the Soundgarden CD book that I keep right beside my bed. After all these years of always seeing their new and interesting stuff, now it's just *POOF* gone. I really hope that the list and the web-site will still be around. To lose both of those along with my fave band will just be too much to handle. Wahh! I want them back!!!! At least I'm lucky in the sense that some of my vest friends are Soundgarden friends, who also miss them alot (already!!). I spent a good part of last night over at my friend's house and we just cried. What else can we do? I wish we could do something to change their minds (I'm not too proud to reduce myself to groveling). It's just all of a sudden so empty, like everything has become hollow and I'm living in a 2-dimensional world where nothing is real. Geez, maybe a medicine company will be kind enough to give everyone on the list some free prozac or something. ~>Jentje (see? I'm too upset to even write "Toodles") "Nothing seems to kill me No matter how hard I try Nothing is closing my eyes..." <~C.Cornell (wahhhhh) ------------------------------ From: Moonsta693@aol.com Subject: Tears are shed for the death of a part of me As I sit down happy and excited to pass my hspt's, my friends gather around me. "you know soundgarden broke up?" I drop my pencil, and tears start streaming down my face. I could not concentrate. Just as things are going good for me, This happens. A mutual agreement? Did anyone notice what was happening here? Ben playing for another band for "a while". Chris said he was going on solo. what about Matt working with Prodigy. What's going on with Kim that we don't know about. I just stood at my locker looking at the pictures, asking why? and tears stream down my hot cheeks. there were some signs. we just didn't notice. What could we do to bring them back? I'm a total loss for words. Does it end here? The world has come crashing down at an unfathomable rate! And I hope it's a sweet ride, The original pretty noose (the outkast) ------------------------------ From: Jentje Subject: #somms Can anybody tell me how to get IRC (I know I don't have it)? That's why I could never go to #somms before. But right now, I think I REALLY need to talk to other sommsters before I go nucking futs!!! ~>Jenn ------------------------------ From: ooyesiku@brynmawr.edu (Olukemi Oyesiku) Subject: I think its coming back around I too am in great mourning for our beloved SG. However, I gave this situation much though--in class, in bed, in front of the Tv when I should have been reading Philosophy--and I realized that as someone said before, SG was having some problems. And, as someone quoted from the Ramones, band members usually do not get along. SG was and always will be one of the greatest bands of all times and we must always remember them as such. Let us not live in denial about the bands demise. Let us cherish the sweet words of Chris Cornell and the sweet tunes of the rest of the band. I think of it this way, they are at least all still alive unlike many bands whose members croak do to overdoses, gunshots to the head, etc. I respect SG too much to be upset at them. I asked myself why SG? as many of you have. I guess my mourning period is not over and will not be over for a long time, but I know I can live knowing I will probably hear from Chris soon with the news that he has joined a new band or has callaborated with other bands to do side projects, etc. I especially look forward to hearing Chris Cornell's oice with new lyrics flowing out from his mouth and sliding off those cherry lips because,he made SG. Others may dispute this but I really do not care, this is my opinion and what I cannot help but feel. Anyway, I suppose this break up is for the best.. It is sometimes better to depart graciously rather than to linger on unhonorably and be known as decadent. I for one will salute SG as I have always done, play. play and play again their music....let the words and tunes flow from my radio...and perhaps one day when I turn to the all rock station here, I will hear the Poet once again........ - --Kemi Whatsoever i feared has come to life Whatsoever i fought off became my life Just when everyday seemed to greet me with a smile Sun spots are fading Now I'm doing time Now I'm doing time Cause I fell on black days... How would I know that this would be my fate........ SG Forever!!!! ------------------------------ From: clindz@wavenet.com (chris) Subject: Hollywood Reporter article The following is from "The Hollywood Reporter" (one of the big entertainment industry trade rags) Thursday, April 10: Soundgarden Plowed Under Signalling what many feel is the end of the grunge era, acclaimed multiplatinum hard rockers Soundgarden have called it quits after 12 years together. "The members of Soundgarden have amicably and mutually decided to disband and pursue other interests," said a release issued by the group's label, A&M Records. "There is no word at this time on any members' future plans." While the breakup was a surprise to many, the writing had been on the wall for some time. Relations among band members were strained, sources said. During last summer's Lollapalooza tour, band members were takign separate flights and meeting at the gigs. A few performances were interrupted by onstage spats that saw some members walk off in mid-performance, sources said. And it was recently rumored that bassist Ben Shephard had joined another band, Devilhead. Members have appeared or guested on many other projects over the years, including recording with such groups as Pigeonhead and Hater. Leader Chris Cornell formed the extremely successful Pearl Jam / Soundgarden offshoot Temple of the Dog in 1990 and went solo with a song on the "Singles" soundtrack in 1992. "The disbanding of Soundgarden makes all of us at A&M very sad," A&M chairman and CEO Al Cafaro wrote in an internal memo circulated among label staffers. "Over their career, Soundgarden, along with their Seattle friends and colleagues, were responsible for a cultural and musical revolution. They have chosen this moment to end the creative chapter of Soundgarden and move on to other artistic challenges, parting with respect, grateful for their collective accomplishments." The group - which also featured guitarist Kim Thayil and drummer Matt Cameron - is credited with exporting the Seattle sound throughout the world, and along with fellow rockers Nirvana, managed to make the Seattle music scene one of the most vital and viable in recent memory. But with Soundgarden's breakup, the drug-related suicide of Nirvana leader Kurt Cobain in April 1994, Alice in Chains' inability to tour and Pearl Jam's new musical direction, the Seattle sound has all but vanished. by Marc Pollack April 10, 1997 *** Well, obviously, the guy's a moron - but I've transcribed it for you free of commentary. But there is a good point here: be glad the band ended this way and not the way Nirvana did. All four of them are still alive and will no doubt continue to produce great music. Peace, Chris * * * * * * * * * * "Sittin' here like wet ashes with x's in my eyes and drawing flies" Soundgarden, "Drawing Flies" ------------------------------ From: "Valerio Morettini" Subject: everything to have them back!! A big part of my life just flown away.But Chris,Matt, Ben and Kim are still alive, and i'm expecting them to continue their life as musicians ("pursue other interests?" are they gonna collect butterflies or what??).But this is something serious i was wondering. I know it's stupid, but my mind has not recovered from the stroke yet.Many of us didn't like DOTU:some didn't like it at all, some thought it was far worse than superunknown(and i would put myself among these).I know i'll get flamed, but this is the truth.It's hard to admit that your favourite band, the band you listened to for years has made something you didn't like. I feel i can resist the pain..but if sg had broke up after superunknown, i probably would have spent days crying.DOTU has someway "softened" the parting.It has been like somebody you loved dying and trying to make you hate him in order to make the detachment less painful. This could seem an attack to sg..i assure you it's the last thing i meant to do, expecially in such a moment.In fact i was wondering (and now i'm addressing the ones that like me didn't like sg's last album) if dotu was really a mistake, or something done in consciousness of a future action... Still hoping it's a bad joke... Valerio - --------------------------------------------------------- Get Your *Web-Based* Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com - --------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------ From: CORNELLSG@aol.com Subject: Re: fugue state SUSAN WROTE THIS : Hi sommspeople, It's very comforting to know that people went through the same emotional turmoil that I've seen today... 1. Denial. Came to work april 9th. Checked Seth's page to see if anything new was up with the band, as I often do first thing in the morning. Saw the press release. I sat there silently, as the rest of the people in my lab busily bustled away, mixing chemicals, putting stuff in ovens, talking in Chinese or German or English about stuff that wasn't important. Thishasgottobeajoke this has got to be a joke THIS HAS GOT TO BE A JOKE. It's close to april fools. My birthday is in a week fer christ sake... this cant be real. 2. Run away! Run away! Buried myself in my work, showed no emotion. Told my friends at work the bad news. They're not fans; they tried to comfort me by attempting to take my mind off the situation. "Susan, thousands of people in North Korea are starving to death." I tried to focus on this fact and other dreary aspects of politics, etc. to avoid looking inside and seeing an empty space. Run away! run away! 3. Acceptance Read the somms mailing list. All of you express what I am feeling a hell of a lot better than I ever could. Finally realized that I would never be able to look forward to a new release or concert by my favorite band. 4. Rejoicing in what we have received I'm at lab at 2 o clock in the morning. Superunknown is CRANKED and BLASTING. I love this band, and I wish all the members the best. I hope their solo projects are good. While there will no longer be music with contributions from four distinctly different personalities, each adding a special, characteristic edge....hopefully there will be something better than the crap being played on the radio. Speaking of radio, a brief stage known as "Anger did occur between the run away! and acceptance stages....when I saw Sheryl Crow videos on MTV and VH1, and heard Bush and Counting Craps and Hootie and the Blowchunks on the radio. SG, HOW COULD YOU LEAVE US MIRED IN AND SURROUNDED BY ALL THIS SHITTY, MEDIOCRE MUSIC, WITH NO HOPE OF RESPITE? Many are the times I've said, "Oh yeah, better than ezra?! TAKE THIS!" and switched off the radio and cranked up some Soundgarden. I'll miss them. No matter what I was feeling, there was a soundgarden song that expressed it perfectly. Their combined talent blasted off the disk, through my headphones, into my ears and into my soul, leaving an indescribable feeling of RIGHTNESS. I can't explain it. It can't be imitated. I hope it is still there in some of the solo projects. Thanks for listening....and writing to the list. I get some comfort knowing I'm not alone. So bleed your heart out....there's no more rides for free... Now I know why you've been shaken. Susan L. I'M GOING THREW THE SAME THING , THE ONLY THING IS , IS THAT MY MIND STILL WOUNT LET ME BELEIVE THEY BROKE UP . HOPFULLY THEY WILL GET BACK TOGETHER ONE DAY. ------------------------------ End of somms Digest [Volume 3 Issue 86] ***************************************